Monday, May 25, 2015

Sorry - Not Sorry?

Chad Enjoying Time With His Family!
Sometimes I feel bad for not updating this blog as often as I used to for those who actually still follow along - then I consider the reason I am not updating and it's probably a blessing for everyone :)

Chad is doing pretty good. The previous pain he used to have in his upper left quadrant seems to be much less severe and his eating is getting moderately easier. But as in life, when one thing gets better - something else gets worse. He now has that horrible burning along his lower abdomen/waist area again and a stabbing pain that radiates from his scar outward. He may have pulled a muscle or detached some scar tissue or something as a result of lifting something or moving a certain way, so we'll give it a few more days to see how he does.

But with all things considered - I think things are moving along. His dermatologist appointment and follow-up with Dr. V (oncologist) is next week - so wish us well! Praying his moles are nothing to be concerned about and his oncologist is able to reccomend further treatment to address his pain.

Our other big prayer is that he is cleared for work. I have mixed emotions because financially - we NEED his income. We are running out of money fast and there is no one left to ask for help anymore. On the other side, the very last thing I want him to do is cause himself further pain by over-doing it. God willing, Chad will be able to walk the line and get back to work without risking injury.

If anyone in Murray has a job that pays well - that doesn't involve heavy lifting and bending - holla! lol

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Still Kickin'

For those out there who may be wondering how life is going in the Cavitt Household - we're still kickin'!

Chad has had some decent days and he's had some rough ones. He still cramps really bad when he eats - this is one thing I wish would show some improvement. There are some days (when he's not eating) that he feels half normal. He is a trooper, that's for sure! To think what he's been through and while he isn't one of those 'in your face optimistic' types, he really has handled this like a champ.

There are some people who face obstacles, not even close to cancer, and curl up into a little ball and cry to anyone and everyone who will listen - all the while waiting for everyone else to fix their problems and make things better. But not Chad. He really has taken every bump and turn like the true hero that he is :)

June 3, 2015 - marks another visit to the VA in Marion. Chad will be seeing both a dermatologist to get some moles checked out, as well as his oncologist. God willing, we'll have easy days until then!

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Appointment Postponed

Chad was supposed to go to Marion on the 14th to see the Oncologist again and have a CT Scan and such. However, since he was there for the ER visit and they did a scan, the doctor has said not to bother since there is such a long distance to travel.

He will just make an appointment for June when Chad goes to see the dermatologist about the moles. This is fine by us since our car troubles continue to haunt us. Dr. V has suggested he may consider up'ing Chad's nerve medication next month to see if it helps reduce the pain but for now, he is supposed to reduce it to 3 a day since they are making him nauseous.

So as it stands - life is moving along.

Monday, May 4, 2015

No Change

And it's frustrating. Same pains, same distension, same cramping. This medication doesn't seem to be doing anything and aside from scar tissue - no explanation has been offered. It's hard not to get discouraged. On one hand, Chad has been so very blessed to have had so much good news and on the other hand - is this his new normal? Not being able to eat without having pain and cramping? Not being able to lift something or bend over without shooting and throbbing sensations?

Today has been hard for me. Just general stress from life. For example; our vehicle, which we were hoping would be the reliable transportation we so desperately needed, ended up getting some serious problem in the back end, that will likely end up costing around $500 (if we're lucky) to fix. I can't seem to shake this messed up shoulder. (or back) I know I should go to a doctor myself but I have a whole slew of excuses why I don't want to and believe it or not - a lot of them are valid. How much is enough? How do people continue to find strength? I know these things aren't the end of the world and we'll figure them out. Just on top of everything else - I need a vacation. A quiet escape where life is easy. "Normal". Just for a day.

And this is ME. I can't imagine how Chad must feel. And this blog is about him, not me! lol Just if you're out there and a 'care giver' - I know you'll understand. Sometimes the hardest thing is sitting back watching someone you love hurt and there's nothing in the world you can do for them.

His doctor appointment is still on the 14th. I am not sure if he'll run another CT Scan or just prescribe some more/different medications. I'll keep you posted.

Tomorrow is another day. Another chance. Another blessing. And I'll continue to be grateful and continue to thank God for each one.